Sunday, April 26, 2009

Miserable Weekend

This weekend was not one of my better ones. Financial stress, frustration with my daughter at home and worry about my daughter living on her own. My daughter that still lives at home has bi-polar mood disorder. She is very difficult to live with and yesterday she was being very passive/aggressive (and is still being that way Sunday evening). I have spent the last 30 hours in my bedroom, only leaving for necessities (food and water) just trying to stay out of her way. I must admit though, it's been fun reading one book after another and canoodling with my hubby. Do you have adult children that have a mood disorder? What is that like for you?

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Why Hazy Dayz

Why Hazy Dayz? It feels most days like I am in a haze. I keep looking for a new life, something more clear and concise. So far, I haven't found it. My place in the world is changing as my children leave home, my job becomes less palatable and I am once again faced with the question, "What do I want to be when I grow up?" There is very little in my life that turned out the way I thought it might when I was 20. I still want some of those things but is it too difficult to make them happen? What parts of me do I want to shed and what parts do I want to keep? Too much food for thought, I think I will go get a Pepsi, and in the words of Scarlett O'Hara - "I'll think about it tomorrow."

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Sunday Blues

I don't know why but I always feel a little sad on Sundays.

I remember when I was growing up we always went to church and then my mom would cook a great lunch like pot roast and potatoes with hot rolls. Then my parents would nap, which was totally boring when you are 10. Then we would go back to church again in the evening.

Now that I have my own family, I didn't follow tradition too well. We may or may not make it to church. If we do, it's catch as catch can for lunch and then I nap while everyone else entertains themselves.

I think a piece of me longs for the connection we had as a family on Sundays. My family growing up wasn't close at all but Sundays were a day when we had the whole day in common.